Am I really a research material ? I wasn't  sure, and some recent thought is pushing me to the edge of a negative answer.

I love what I do now, but not as much as I expected myself to. What's the problem ? I'm not sure.

Maybe it's the hard time we're having trying to figure out our exact plan. And this does bothers me a lot. Knowing where to go doesn't mean knowing how to get there, sometimes not even gives a single hint. I really hope we can make it through, but unfortunately no path is marked in front of us.

Maybe it's some thing I found out about myself. I start to realize that facing the computer all day long to squeeze out ideas is probably not what I'm really looking for. Still I don't what is right for me, but doing research is not as good a answer as it looked like several months ago when I didn't pay much time on career planning as I do now :(

However, next three years should be take great care of.

Hope I can uncover myself enough for my future before July 2010 comes, but if I'm not able to, there's nobody to blame.

班里拍DV，我演背影男～

不过，我拥有全剧最high的一句台词～

哇哈哈……

毕业了，或者说马上就要毕业了，但是以后的事情已经提前摆在我面前了，或者说我已经基本知道我以后至少三年我都要干些什么了。

我也不知道这是好还是不好，说好的话，就是我可以提前熟悉以下；说不好的话……我还没想好……

但我已经想好的是我现在只想回家，回家彻底的放松和调整，在这里总是觉得非常不舒服：（

但这似乎并不取决于我，要看孟老师放不放人了……

不容易，虽然很艰难，不过还是拿下了最重要的比赛。

这是一场经典的胜利：领先，主力被罚下，被赶上，替补发威，胜利～

希望决赛可以有好的表现～

好久没有像这样专心读书了，感觉还真是爽，看来读书人还是要多读书才是啊，希望可以坚持下来。

现在的问题是如何安排每本书的时间，实在是不好分配啊，真是希望时间过得慢一些，或者我能看得再快一些 ……

I'm learning to fly, but ain' got wings.

希望能够尽快抹去这句话。

今天基本没去实验室，上午一觉空降到十点，起来吃了个饭，两点去打球，一直打到六点半左右，那个累啊……不过很爽 :)

很久没有这么心安理得地逃离实验室了，不过明儿就得乖乖回去了，毕竟还有很多事情要做，先睡个好觉吧 :)

答辩过了，该写的报告啥的也都写了，863也提交了，似乎真的可以有一个暂时的喘息。

不过也就是暂时的，Nutch的插件还没有测试，林灿交代的StylusStudio也还没有看，六月份还有个破SIGMOD，更重要的是：对于即将到来的三年仍然是一片迷茫……

不管怎样，心是可以沉下来了，可以安静的读些书，想些问题了，希望我能想出个123来 :)

刚才把863提交到学校了，这可是我今生目前为止提交的分量最重的东西，虽然事后发现一个错别字……

希望申请一切顺利，大家保佑我们吧～

初稿，终于写完了……

幸好孟老师没有提出很大的否定性意见，我就已经很欣慰了 ：）

加油，好好再修改一下 ：）

伴随我写论文的Friends也看到第十季的最后两集了，已经开始伤感了，连Chandler的Joke也让我觉得更多是分离的忧伤，没办法，天下没有不散的宴席，第二遍Friends之旅也快要画上句号了，最后两集真是有些不舍得看了……

与此同时，我的论文页写到了最关键的最后一部分了，

Friends，保佑我吧。

From this day on, I will never try to persuade any one into anything that they are not able to see the point.

Why am I so arrogant as to think that I can help any one I care  by persuading them from their bad situation ? Why ?

I don't know.

I used to thought the ones who hold the truth are in control of the situation.

However, things happened in the recent months turned my mind upside down. When it comes to relationship, nothing but their own feelings matters. And any work with the expectation of changing their mind is destined to end up achieved nothing. They won't believe anything until they're cornered to the edge.

People.

果如孟老师所说，这样的文章确实不好写。

前人工作非常少，而且体系结构都没有成形，概括总结起来非常之困难。

举步维艰啊～